PetsHexaSnoot 2 weeks ago • 100%
Happy birthday Bailey! I patiently watched this photo load like it was printing from a fax machine. 
em_pocHexaSnoot 2 weeks ago • 100%
I didn't know people think it's funny. I thought it's viral because his voice is very impressive. It's also an earworm. I always saw it as a sad party song. Like the song I'm Blue(dabadee).
Edit: I just listened to it in full for the first time and read the lyrics. It's chilling poetry. You're completely right.
HexaSnoot 2 weeks ago • 100%
I'm Asian and I'm very hesitant to include myself as a "brown" person even though some people do. In terms of suffering from colorism, I feel like my skin isn't dark enough and I tend to have more privilege than other brown people. Racist stereotypes of Asians say they're all super smart and high achievers. Many other racial stereotypes say the complete opposite for other ethnicities of brown people. I feel like I'm stealing victimhood when I say I'm brown.
My anxiety about this is so great, I don't talk about this at all, not even to my closest loved ones. I don't want to step on anyone's toes about this topic of if I'm brown or not. I don't want to be excluded but I have guilt about being included.
askchapo
This is for meat eaters. I want to overcome the phobia of seeing my food alive before it ends up on my plate as meat. Are there downsides of skipping observing the food process?
HexaSnoot 3 weeks ago • 100%
askchapo
This is for meat eaters. I want to overcome the phobia of seeing my food alive before it ends up on my plate as meat. Are there downsides of skipping observing the food process?
HexaSnoot 3 weeks ago • 100%
I have other priorities higher than a completely plant based diet change. I might do it one day, for now I've just reduced my meat consumption. And I didn't say you can't criticize it.
HexaSnoot 3 weeks ago • 100%
Idk, but I love watching a YouTube channel called Little Chinese Everywhere. By a Chinese woman who is on her way to making videos of every single province in China. She goes into homes of locals like every episode. Asks them about life there. Sometimes multiple homes. Crazy levels of hospitality in many total strangers. I'm American and it made my bf cry because we deeply feel like these are our people. Maybe her channel will inspire your choice making. It certainly makes me want to move to China.
askchapo
What is whiteness? I didn't even know it existed until 2 years ago, and I want my understanding expanded.
HexaSnoot 1 month ago • 100%
I had trouble thinking of what to say because there are dynasties in my ethnicity's culture. With many cultural traditions centered around the dynasties and the concept of money. My parents are immigrants and my childhood was filled with cultural practices. If I were to say my culture is worth more than a chain restaurant, I'd believe it.
But the question stands: Where does the hegemonic culture begin and end? What is the answer when capitalism existed in the making of my ethnicity's culture? Where does one end, and another begins?
Wanting these ends on a bob that stops around or below my chin or collar bone. I want really spikey ends, hopefully with a straight line in the space between them. Literally like this picture. Can I simply cut it this way? Do I have to use product? Can I recreate it post-haircut by simply brushing my hair? If I can't just brush it out back into this post-haircut, and I must use product, what do I use and how?
I grew up with culture and assumed everyone else had culture. Then I came across a white person who fetishized black and Asian people. She grew up in America completely without contact with their ancestral tree for generations. I'd sit down, and they'd tell me their DNA is part Asian around 20x before I got up from my seat. She and her entire family looked completely white. That's how far back she was digging. She's not black by any stretch, but she claimed she couldn't understand white slang because she only speaks black slang... even though she grew up with my also white boyfriend in the same white suburb neighborhood. My boyfriend simply talks like a white person. She wore cultures as costumes. Like not growing up wearing durags then wearing one at 25 and dressing up in gang colors and lying about being in a gang, growing up in a ultra-rich suburban neighborhood and explaining to my boyfriend what is like to grow up in the hood(you grew up in the same ultra rich suburb shut up!), Buddhist beads(in her chosen gang color) with long "Buddhist nails" when they were cruel and dehumanizing at every chance, and nothing else about them was Buddhist. She is also immunocompromised, but started the pandemic insisting she wear a paisley bandana(also in the gang color) instead of medical masks I gave her a full pack of. She claims it's distasteful to talk about feeling animosity towards the 1%, but she loves watching videos of black gangs getting shot. They were constantly trying to look like "an exotic white person." They never realized they are just white and can only be shown around other people's cultures as a guest, but can never become "one of them." Always just as an outsider. They taught me part of what whiteness was. Because of them I know about people who are white and nothing else.
chapotraphouse
Why does America need to stop existing in a communist world? Why can't it simply have it's inner power structures replaced with communism while remaining in existence?
HexaSnoot 1 month ago • 100%
Ah right the very concept of an existing colonial entity. I suppose you can't make it right by letting it exist.
I wonder what First Nation people would call the land when it's all said and done. I feel like it would be defended against more strongly if they protected it as one unified power.
chapotraphouse
Why does America need to stop existing in a communist world? Why can't it simply have it's inner power structures replaced with communism while remaining in existence?
HexaSnoot 1 month ago • 100%
That's a really good quote. Is State and Revolution an easy read? I'm a dumber communist because I get demotivated easily with reading material.
This is not a joke. I actually don't know.
HexaSnoot 2 months ago • 100%
Luckily Green Snake is on YouTube. I watched it! https://youtu.be/oBjycaw5ulk?si=mjJJ8b1wwYd-aN_B
Is it a classic Chinese folk tale? I liked all the silly seduction moments and disliked all the moments men tried to bring the snakes down. I don't see what made the snakes evil. There was no negative effect of them looking and behaving attractively. The way the men were trying to bring them down made me think they'd kill the men they attracted, but the snakes did nothing but treat them well. Prude people just need to enjoy being horny and let everyone else be horny.
HexaSnoot 2 months ago • 100%
Saw the red scare one on Netflix. Does the Tencent one not have red scare?
HexaSnoot 2 months ago • 100%
I'm trying to watch some 90s films so I can relate to Chinese people my age lol.
That is SO smart. I haven't thought of that strategy to get on the level of people my age. Thank you for your recommendations.
HexaSnoot 2 months ago • 100%
It won't play on my phone. What year is this show?
HexaSnoot 2 months ago • 100%
You mean Three Body Problem? I saw the first 2 minutes and it looked like red scare propaganda. Depicting communists punishing people for believing in science and god.
I saw some set in ancient China which seemed pretty cool. I'd love to find it and get some subtitles going. One show had an evil character that was a woman with many lower ear piercings. Starting on her ear lobes, trailing up the edge of her ear. She seemed like a power hungry royal who'd slap and punish other women a lot. Really pretty show. Her looks and character's tendencies are why I remember it.
HexaSnoot 2 months ago • 100%
Can you link to a list in the statute?
HexaSnoot 2 months ago • 100%
Can you just say you want a vaccine they have that's not available in the US?
She responded to accusations of being a Nazi by posting [she's proud of "white culture"](https://mixmag.net/read/grimes-proud-white-culture-called-nazi-white-supremacist-news) and I'd like to quit consuming her stuff.
A Chinese communist news site full of happy news is called [Sixth Tone.](https://www.sixthtone.com/) Another is China's official newspaper, [People's Daily.](https://peoplesdaily.pdnews.cn/) I love what I've read on there, but I tend to barely read articles. And please, if you spot an podcast in English on one of these sites, let me know!
My perfectionism is disabling. I ban myself from doing anything I don't feel like I'll do perfect at. I barely do things I love and don't know my interests well. I love people and mingling, but I grew up selectively mute until highschool and to this day I have a hard time being direct. I overthink all texts. I used to type one sentence for hours and not send anything. My humor is very underdeveloped because I don't risk bombing jokes. There's so much I won't do unless someone is there encouraging me and enthusiastically approving of what I'm doing. I have severely low self esteem because of my level of perfectionism. I just want to hang out and chill with people and have interests that I act on. Btw, what do you do when you need to do something you love, fast?
Like in a dehumanizing manner. I want to go by it/they/them but I'm scared I won't be able to handle it if someone does that.
traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns
Are you a cisgender heterosexual? Informal Survey Result: Supermajority of Hexbear users say NO and UNSURE.
HexaSnoot 3 months ago • 100%
Putting things in gendered boxes wears on me to the extent I want to go by it/they/them. I'll go by "she/her" sometimes but it's to embrace the underdog role I have in this patriarchy.
How do you handle it someone calls you "it" in a mean way?
traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns
Are you a cisgender heterosexual? Informal Survey Result: Supermajority of Hexbear users say NO and UNSURE.
HexaSnoot 3 months ago • 100%
What do you mean by dehumanization?
traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns
Are you a cisgender heterosexual? Informal Survey Result: Supermajority of Hexbear users say NO and UNSURE.
HexaSnoot 3 months ago • 100%
What makes some people go by it/it's?
I prefer giving to a mutual aid resource, but other kinds of answers are fine. I know goodwill is shitty, I won't give to them.
askchapo
I want to go out to small metal shows where my predator might be. How should I go about this?
HexaSnoot 3 months ago • 100%
I'll go by Hot Rod for short
askchapo
I want to go out to small metal shows where my predator might be. How should I go about this?
HexaSnoot 3 months ago • 100%
That's a good idea. I should use a highly common name so if they spot me and hear what name I'm going by, it's still a little harder for them to ask around for me.
It would be deeply triggering to see him and he is extremely manipulative, plus he has friends that attend the scene. Some of them were doing meth last I saw them over ten years ago. If I make friends, they could easily link back to him through themselves or multiple people. I seriously cannot tolerate that. I don't want him knowing anything about me and my life. Do you think I can manage being part of a small scene with these conditions?
askchapo
My friend wants to have sex with more people. What are some red flag signs to watch out for and avoid? Or rules of consent to set? Why?
HexaSnoot 5 months ago • 100%
Both. They asked me for advice if I had any. Turns out I need that advice too.
askchapo
Whatever tracking cookies are, would another site with tracking cookies see I've been on hexbear?
HexaSnoot 6 months ago • 100%
Is it good for Android?
I think hexbear has them. Is it a connection thing where cookies spot other cookies? Do tracking cookies matter when it comes to insurance and therapy sites/apps? I'm thinking about therapy that I saw advertised on YouTube, and I bet they're somehow sketchy. And their app requires the use of third party tracking and cookies. I just don't want these sites/apps to see I'm a communist.
askchapo
I heard you can some stop having autism by socializing enough. I don't totally understand that.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
I've hear of masking but I'm not clear on what it is. Can people without autism do masking? Or is it just people with autism?
askchapo
I heard you can some stop having autism by socializing enough. I don't totally understand that.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
Hm. Should I change it? I'm saying that's what I heard, but repeating it is the same as saying it, right?
Edit: Changed my question.
askchapo
What's theory or advice that will make me feel less lonely, and/or teach me to be less lonely? I'm very atomized.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
One of those cults show off a guy as of he's the new Mao, but it's a people's revolution, not one guy's revolution. I can't not be a cult. I could always post here about if I suspect there's a cult trying to seduce me into joining.
I'm one of the dumber Communists who haven't read much theory, and often avoid it because I need easy happy adventure books. I like reading though and I'll find things to occupy my time while seeking out more knowledgeable communists to talk with and have rant at me. How do I find the right libraries?
askchapo
What's theory or advice that will make me feel less lonely, and/or teach me to be less lonely? I'm very atomized.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
Maritime museums have communists? I thought they'd have chuddy war veterans. I'm from America btw.
Tips to make friends without spending money are welcome. I've spent years in a city without making friends. Luckily even though I'm a minority in America, I'm not a minority in my city. :) It's filled with people of my ethnicity. So I have more opportunities to be closer with my people, and I want do the right things to get there. Btw they don't have to be my ethnicity. Just wanna make friends to begin with. My dream is to meet cool communists around here. It's a minority city, and I figure I can't be the only one.
I'm curious how that could work. That peaks my interest because I've known people who have autism and seem great at socializing. I don't have autism, but I'm very socially awkward, and if autistic people can do that I find it inspirational for my own socializing journey. A podcaster on [Radio Free Totebag](https://radiofreetotebag.castos.com/) casually said it, and idk if it was just as a passing joke, or if they were speaking factually. They mentioned a therapist not liking that they still say they're autistic when it's an old diagnosis.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
"For example, let’s say the new government wants to nationalize a certain natural resources, what happens? You get sanctioned, the exchange rate falls, the debt multiplied, and you end up with an even more unpopular government than the previous right-wing government"
I don't get why it works this way.
"This represented a new and perhaps even more effective means of spreading neoliberal ideology across the world, not by employing right wing paramilitary death squads to coup left wing governments (though it still happens), but through an ideological indoctrination of the overseas students who came to study in Western institutions, who would then bring the seeds back to their home countries and allow it to germinate there."
Someone tried telling me about the harm of when the US pretends to be #1 in supporting certain good things. Like LGBTQ rights, despite actually having been extremely against it for all of US history until recent years. They described it as a Trojan horse to sneak in imperialist propaganda into other countries. And then people of those countries see what the Trojan horse is filled with, and deem the the Trojan horse evil that must be banned. So then they're against things like LGBTQ rights because they've seen it used as a vehicle filled with pieces of imperial agenda.
I didn't get it, but you describing those pieces as seeds self-spreading and germinating helps it makes much more sense to me.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
I'm having a hard time connecting exactly how it's capitalist, other than the thread about breeding programs and the fact that capital demands expansion across more land for more resources through colonial projects.
The influence of capital has been difficult for me to grasp because I have a hard time putting it in words for myself.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
I've read about China's laws not legally recognizing long-term gay couples even if they've been together for decades. I don't know where the reasons for it stem from.
I want to do a quick Google search on if gay marriage is legal in China, but I suspect I'd get a bunch of of articles saying it isn't even if it is.
HexaSnoot 7 months ago • 100%
There are a lot of patriarchies out there. I've frequently felt colonization in the US involved cult rules for a breeding program. Anything outside procreation would likely be against the program. Including mastubation because you're not using your libido for making babies. What you're saying could be a blanket statement across a great many colonizing projects.
I'm more exposed to American conservatism. And even here I barely understand it. I used to be Christian, but I left the religion before I realized I was bi, and before I knew genderfluidity and trans people existed. I guess I'd have to know why individual religious groups, countries, cities,(etc...) have anti-LGBTQ beliefs. Maybe there are no blanket statements that properly address it for the entire world.
HexaSnoot 8 months ago • 100%
I'm reading the Cirque de Freak child horror story series. Idk if that counts a fantastical.
In the that case I'm unable to come up with my own story, my backup plan is to take characters, character traits, and stories from other media like games, books, and movies. So even if I can't come up with my own shit I can still play.
HexaSnoot 8 months ago • 100%
Do you mean entertainment (curated games, video games), unstructured play (make believe), physical activity (chasey)?
All of them. I've had trouble making friends though so I'll have to do a lot of stuff alone. Or have the courage to go out and ask if strangers can teach me how to do things. (I'm unsure if I have that courage for now.)
HexaSnoot 8 months ago • 100%
Happy to hear about your success in brightness. All your spontaneity ideas sound nice. I do half of the first paragraph so I consider that a head start to doing all that. I really like those dad jokes. I've been having trouble making friends, but I have one who does jokes like that all day, and it's really helpful for my uprightness.
I gotta take a hammer to a block of ice sometime.
HexaSnoot 8 months ago • 100%
Larping larping larping larping larping.
Plus basketball and soccer.
HexaSnoot 8 months ago • 100%
I just began playing Amnesia: A Machine For Pigs. I stopped when I began being in danger of being pursued. It's my first horror game. I love watching people play horror games, and hate playing them. I'm too scared of the first Amnesia game and Resident Evil games to play them.
I could use happy pretty games. And ones with easy enemies. I hate fighting enemies, but after playing the Gator Game, I've learned it gets boring quick. So good fighting games to learn to stand my ground would help.
Also, what would help me do tasks while sneaking around those enemies in the Amnesia game I'm playing?
HexaSnoot 8 months ago • 100%
What are some easy instruments that teach you rhythm? I unfortunately have no rhythm.
HexaSnoot 8 months ago • 100%
Oddly enough and ironically, structure and restrictions can open things to creativity. It's kind of like distilling a project to just the creative portion.
Makes sense. They give you a creative form to fill out. With whatever you want.
Does D&D give easy forms to fill? I wasn't allowed to read much either, so my imagination is stunted when it comes to storytime.
Worked a lot as a child and barely played. Missed out on lots of personality development. I have more free time now and I want to play, but I don't totally understand how. I was told when I have something fun to do, learn to fail the marshmallow test and just immediately eat the marshmallow. I feel paralyzed. I'm used to playing only if I'm invited by someone else to play, and I want to play more when I'm alone. So far I sometimes draw and read a fun book. Both usually make me anxious, but they bring me feelings of accomplishment.
Please put a warning for brutal content. Sometimes I need to save brutal things for another time.
TW: suicide Don't want to hurt abusers, but I do want to *be able* to hurt them and choose not to. I think it'd help me if I gained the ability to imagine physical vengeance. I want this to end in forgiveness. It's long been unsustainable for me to be a martyr. I waste my life away in maladaptive daydreaming where I imagine helping my past abusers. I've attempted suicide over the grief of past events, which gave me CPTSD and OCD. I've had multiple physical abusers, and can barely imagine hurting them. I need to build the ability to imagine attacking. I think if I can imagine hurting my attackers and physically punishing them, including just for my own vindictive fun, then maybe I can gain the ability to actually forgive them. Currently, I imagine giving them what they want, and then magically figuring out a compromise with them where they change their minds and stop being an abuser. (Like dating someone who sees me as a piece of meat, and using the relationship to change their mind so they're not a shithead anymore.) I think that's not actual forgiveness, it's just bending to their will. I cycle through these maladaptive daydreams of self-sacrificing for the benefit of the inhumane, and waste my life in suicidal grief. I'm skipping something crucial... ...I realize cannot truly forgive without making a choice to not hurt them. I think I need to first imagine brutal vengeance. Not to act it out, but as a step to expressing myself differently before I attempt forgiveness. __________ A friend has also been trying to train me in MMA, but I won't hit for real. I won't spar with them even though I know its good for me. I just imagine stopping danger through compromises that don't actually exist. One session I hit a bag for real. I was down to punch after someone had attempted to assault me days earlier. Being vindictive seriously helps, and imagining torturing and annihilating the predator was a huge help. *___*
Obviously there's the dialectics where it can be the opposite. I need to view it as more of a loving world right now.
I know about the podcast because someone I hang out with listens to them. I almost always half-listen to the first five minutes then tap out. (...Except when they cover Rod Dreher. He's my favorite topic they bring up.  ) Because even when things are looking up, lots of the topics are depressing. For example, when the Hamas are successful in any way, it's always attached to their struggles. Sometimes I think I'm too fragile to listen., Other times I think it's actually my perspective. Perhaps I'm too cynical and must beat a case of doomer brain. There's always a better perspective to see the news with. I also got dismissed and dehumanized a lot as a child. I don't like to hear others suffering getting the same or worse treatment. Even if it's heavy, I would like to not dismiss listening to their stories. You develop a resilience to hearing them over time right?
What else do you know about that period? Do you have materials that teach about it? Simple theory could be best. The Kuomintang's settling in Taiwan is a scary part of history I barely know about. I need help facing it.
I want to be more mindful about the light I cast myself in. I leave myself little room to grow and it'd be beneficial to adventure my way to better self perception. I have self esteem issues that have me avoid testing how I'll react to different scenarios. Whatever "wrong" means, I often assume I'll react "wrongly." I constantly shut down chances for myself to experience more things in life. Like when people give ideas for things I can do, I almost always reject them because I assume I'm incapable of doing those ideas.
I daydream about singing with his voice. Also, omg, have you heard him sing [Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson](https://youtu.be/0yZUMRyeF-U?si=39yyNps5Rm_9NRm5)?
I move like I don't have a physical body. As a result, I bump into things a lot and trip. I try to go through objects like a ghost, sometimes fully expecting it'll work. Like a bee trying to leave a closed window. It happens most when I'm doing chores. I grew up rushing to take care of my abusive family every second of my childhood, and was made to feel my self care had no significance. Even if the care is as small as taking a moment to see if something is in the way, so I don't bump into it. Like a corner while I'm rounding a corner. And even if I notice something's in my way, I will try to crash through it repeatedly before the throbbing of resulting pain reminds me to move it out my way first. The throbbing has to grow intense enough too. I might accidentally hit my head on an object 10 times in less than an hour before I watch my head. (TW: domestic violence) This is probably because my family beat me daily and I dissociate from physical pain. Examples of things I've been told that help me understand my physical presence: - This might sound weird, but "pretend" you have a body. This way you act like you have one. - What are some things in your room? How big are they? What's the biggest thing in your room? How big is it? All those things thake up physical space. Just like those things, you take up physical space.
CW sexual assault, physical assault Growing up, I've been repeatedly assaulted and harassed by know it all's. That's how upsettingly nerdy they were about gatekeeping the autonomy of thinking for myself. Because they wanted to violate the most intimate of boundaries, and not have me fight back. They wanted control and power over me in every way. To play pretend that they were all powerful and intelligent wizards. I see a lot of communists on here saying things that might lead to them being stigmatized, and I want to be able to do that more. You guys shut down nerdiness. I've been conditioned to have controlling nerd voices in my head, and automatically let them convince me out of setting boundaries and speaking up for what I believe in. Now I'm my own controlling nerd, and I don't want to be. I want to walk the right path regardless of how stigmatized it may be. How do you shut down nerds? Especially when their opinions are antihuman? If you don't care about piggypoopballs opinions, what are your reasons for not caring?
The US gov's misinformation that we can act like covid's over is mainly so we're good servants for capital, and that's lib shit. That's mostly what I got.
People are making me feel crazy about fearing Covid. I heard a therapist go "I don't want to say Covid is OVER..." (but)
Any resources to understand would be helpful.
Edit: What terms might you use instead of "Nazi sympathizing?" ___________ I lost a friend to the Nazi movement. I'm not white, and I imagine all the time if I could use his racism to fetishize me until I get enough anti racist propaganda across and he leaves the Nazi movement. I didn't realize how horrifyingly sad this was until I tried looking up the search term "romance stories" and shit like, German soldier falls for Jewish woman or racist falls for black woman, showed up. Half the time I hope his antivax ass dies of a disease, and I hate his guts. The other half I try to think up of ways he's so attracted to me, he sits in for anything I have to say until he's convinced into respecting me, and being on my side of history. I don't think anyone fetishizes their way into fully respecting someone. My imagined scenarios would be dumb and potentially dangerous. At the end of the day, I never want to see him again. I don't want to hate him, feel grief about losing him, or imagine these scenarios. I just want to be.
One that's car-sized and super jiggly, but won't fall apart. You can go on any kind of adventure in it because you can't get hurt in it. I think it'd be really cute and trippy. Could be a 10/10 amusement park ride.
For ex: I used to pick each loose hair off my body throughout my shower. Now I leave them on and pick em all off at the end, and this speeds things up.
I know about [Ask Erowid](https://erowid.org/ask/). But there's nothing about my med on the site. The med I'm taking came out less than 15 years ago. Edit: Latuda is the med I'm looking stuff up on.
For context, I'm gender fluid, and idk if anything I'm mentioning has do with that. Sometimes I'm desperate to express more masculinity, but it isn't an emergency level of wanting to experience a different body. I think it's mostly a power fantasy to do with physical autonomy. With strength, men are generally bigger and stronger. There's also some sex fantasies of having a dick along with my vagina, one that can appear exclusively for sex and disappear when I stop. Sometimes I fume over how I'll never be strong enough to throw a car. I love the idea of looking like Arnold Schwarzenegger when he was on steroids and having fun doing things only incredibly buff people can do. I personally am not turned on by the body type he had, but I'd love to have and use it. It seems like a wonderful level of autonomy.
And am I misinterpreting it? Some flags of the left implicitly stand for respecting human rights. To me the snake flag seems to represent moments libs simply don't want to be stopped, whatever they're doing. Evil or not.
Seeing the YouTube channel name, I'm guessing they come at topics with a capitalist angle. I want another less capitalist source for the kind of stuff they cover. It's mostly products and their production process.