* doses to pseudopregnancy levels of estradiol

"I'll show you!!! >:("

hihi~ yeah I thought that I wasn't the only one :'), wonderful! thank you so much!, any contributions would be greatly appreciated! <3

ooo, good point!

although I would tought that having such a space would be a unpopular thing on a queer lemmy instance.

I brought this up because somebody made me aware that they had to disable their NSFW filter (because they don't want to see porn), to access this community

2. turn NSFW mode off

1. keep community labeled NSFW

ooo, good call!

oki fine :'), I just felt bad because its off topic

ooo I heard of that one... I might have seen a girl snort lines of it but that is besides the point :3

if you want I can add it, will also add the trevorproject link you provided! / I can also add you as a mod since you seam to be invested in this topic

Thank you alot for this great bit of advice!, I do have to say while getting information from reddit and lemmy is not ideal, you also can't expect the average drug user to read papers and its not like the mainstream media/authorities/or schools are providing atequate harmreduction information

ps: if there is any bit of information/resource I should add anywhere, feel free to tell me!

honestly, I would say there is some "hard drugs" I take which are alot more harmless than alcohol, I know people always think our staple drugs are safe, but trust me, I have nearly died because I swallowed a dozen caffeine pills in an manic-episode

my reason for saying amphetamine made me friendships is that it makes me feel more like myself, I can think better not worse, Im confident and enpathic, it quite honestly seams like the reason Im not alone currently

don't know about cannabis as it has not worked for me this far regardless of how fat the joints I smoke are, but I think that sounds like a good and safe idea!

BAD HARMREDUCTION ADVICE:

uiy, I feel like If I give you my honest opinon I might do alot of harm but I was in a very similar spot that you were a year or so ago, I used to have alot of issues socializing because I was afraid and didn't have the convidence to say the things on my mind and I couldn't process well enough

unless you are injecting highly contaminated drugs you shouldn't be doing significant damage to yourself, some stimulants have strong cardiovascular effects you should be aware of especially if you are in danger of having a stroke(like me)

something which really just helped me was taking very controlled amounts of prescription amphetamine since I have ADHD, it helped me form friendships that today I could not do without

but I want to warn you, while most drugs are not as harmful as they are depicted as in the media and so on, you don't want to reach a state where you are permanently chasing a high which you already are not able to feel anymore because you abused your substance of choice for too long, just slighly amp your life up and don't even think you can be in euphoria for the rest of your life if you just keep using

Thank you so much! <333, didn't know how to link a community '^^

No school, no work, just meow meow

injects 100mg 4-MMC(known as meow meow)

Thanks! <3

as I have mentioned on another comment this is not half of it '^^, I have gone to two therapists but my experiences were mostly negative so instead Im just trying to surround myself with loving people and taking MDMA every now and than hihi~, it has certainly helped me unpack some traumatic experiences I had been supressing for years!

No worries!, considering the way I wrote it, I was already afraid that people would interpret it that way.

Although it still hurts and makes me sick to my stomach to think about.

I did not misgender other transpeople directly(there were none) so no, it does not count as harrassing a minority, it does count as gross hatespeach imo.

thank you!

you should continue to assess the beliefs you hold

hm, I mean, after my libertarian phase, I shifted into individualist anarchism before I ultimately stopped giving a fuck about politics since there is nothing I can change.

A while afterwards I was still experiencing thoughts of self tought about my identity due to the things people I had looked up to were spouting but thankfully these thoughts left.

what kind of believes do you think I should watch out for?

Oh I left so many twists of this journey out, because this is already rant enough :')

Thank you!, that is a nice way to think of it <3

Thank you, hearing that helps <3

and I would love some internet hugs :3

* hugs

thank you <3

you do you but my lexer(flex) is not helping me socialize, dumb unix jokes aside, lovely advice <3, I will definetly give that a try!

My favorite!! ty for reposting <333

for the small amount of advice I do have.

It always helps to be directly approaching people, a significant amount of people will positively react to being directly contacted, so fear really isn't warented

advice for people in berlin: write me!!! * puppy eyes *.... also there is a hackerspace called afra which is to a significant part queer, I go there regularly and the people are nice, its just hard for me to actually make friends/interact with people there because of the before mentioned sensory issues

Im happy to say, I have zero proper security practices, 90% of my machines run as root >:3 also CONFIG_MULTIUSER=N is something I have done, so I funny enough cannot relate

hi!!!, sorry I just woke up and came to the realization that room discovery in spaces is broken on my server, I invited you to all rooms and added the room addresses to the space description :,)

hihi, kind of ironic :,) , which is why I decided to switch away from them, but back then I couldn’t resist the tempation of using such a mail, also… isn’t the cock.li mascot just adorable!!! <333 >w<

well besides it being a bad way to convice somebody

for me, it is not about wanting to and its not about childhood(I am an adult and I still strugle + am told what a awful person I am for wasting food), I have a small selection of gland foods I can eat in comfort, everything else is unbearable to eat, I don't refuse food because I don't want to be nice and just eat up, I refuse because It is painful to do and might vomit it all back up again

hihi~

im embarrassed how long it took me to understand your joke and I still knew the handbreak logo :,)

also that picture is cute <333, maybe community picture material?

Hyia Tessa! <3

ooo, that sounds amazing!, I envy that!, I always wanted to go more down into hardware level, correct me please, with a distributed system you mean, an embedded OS, which you deploy in a cluster which shares its resources?, sad that you can't say much, sounds rly interesting!

sorry if that is a silly question, your egg has just recently cracked? :P

tysm cutie! you don't know how much I appreciate that <333, its a relatively new name but the second it came into my mind I couldn't let it go anymore ^^, Tessa is a really wonderful name too btw!

Yeah and I absolutely can't, I have been forced, which has been quite painful, although now adays that doesn't happen but people just pressure me, and if I can't, I get lines like "children in africa are starving", I have heard that one alot

Oh, don't worry, I have a couple more balanced comfort foods, that was just some hyperbelly :)