mtf Transfem I feel like a fraud because I am scared to take the DIY estrogen
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 4 weeks ago 100%

    I appreciate this greatly. Thank you for moderating the community this way.

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  • trans Trans How's your transition been going
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 4 weeks ago 100%

    Kinda hasn't been going. There's not really much I can do given my current situation, so I'm mostly just waiting for college (which is in 2 years).

    There is some stuff that I "can" be doing, like voice training, but I just don't have the energy or willpower to do so. I'm trying my best, and recently my best has just been getting out of bed in the morning.

    Overall, has been going pretty terribly. But I have hope that it'll get better in the future when my situation isn't so sucky.

    Edit: Oh yeah I did get a therapist. They are basically everything I could ever ask for. Trans (nonbinary), ADHD, Autism (SELF DIAGNOSED which is huge), and just in general I really click with them. I don't think I could've gotten any better.

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  • mtf Transfem I feel like a fraud because I am scared to take the DIY estrogen
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 4 weeks ago 100%

    think you replied to the wrong person

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  • mtf Transfem I feel like a fraud because I am scared to take the DIY estrogen
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 4 weeks ago 100%

    Taking or not taking HRT doesn't make you more or less valid. And remember, you can always stop it after you start it if you want to. Do what you think will make you happy, and do it when you are ready. If that means waiting to take HRT that's perfectly okay.

    I'm not really sure what the deal is with the DIY hate in the other comments. Seems like cis people commenting on trans healthcare without actually knowing anything about trans healthcare (stop please). DIY isn't unsafe as long as you're getting your supply from a trusted source (which in this case I'm not sure you are, so that's your call). Doctors do not magically know everything, and they have proven time and time again to have no clue how to handle trans healthcare.

    No matter what you decide, you are still valid. Not everyone takes HRT, and that's perfectly okay. Nobody can make this decision for you.

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  • trans Trans Know any transmascs?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 1 month ago 100%

    i only know one, his name is cowboycrustation xP

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  • mtf Transfem Finally, a dress that fits!
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 1 month ago 100%

    cute!

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  • linuxmemes linuxmemes Download headless
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    i just checked and this is actually real thats amazing

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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    poor haj :(

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  • transmemes Trans Memes Gatekeeping
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    thats what happened to me :D

    (well actually i was told im too depressed so maybe i was too trans for hormones)

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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    why so squished and sad though :(

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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    what happened to blahaj D:

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  • trans Trans New resource discovery?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%
  • mtf Transfem I'm noticing more posts than usual, did Reddit do something?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    no.. sometimes people just post things

    when one person posts other people feel more comfortable posting, and more posts ensue

    be the change you want to see in the world xP

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  • mtf Transfem My E Has Arrived! What Are Some Things I Should Track About Myself Over Time?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    make sure to dissolve it under your tongue!!! dont swallow it.

    theoretically that could work, but it would be much safer on either an AA or 8hr intervals instead of twice a day (imo)

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  • mtf Transfem My E Has Arrived! What Are Some Things I Should Track About Myself Over Time?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    what form of E are you taking and what dosage? monotherapy will suppress T at right dosages. but you cant keep your T, thats not how it works.

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  • mtf Transfem My E Has Arrived! What Are Some Things I Should Track About Myself Over Time?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    I’m also only taking E since I want to keep my T for now.

    thats like... a really bad idea. not properly suppressing T while taking E is just going to lead to imbalanced hormones and make you feel like complete garbage. all the effects from E can only happen if your T is properly suppressed (especially physical changes)

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  • dankchristianmemes Dank Christian Memes Some changes to this community (and asking for more mods)
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    :3

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  • trans Trans What do you do with photos of your old self?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    i just dont let people take photos of me :3

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  • trans Trans hexbear trans mega hits 3098 comments!
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 96%

    because everyone defederated with them

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  • trans_voice_help Trans Voice Help Lilith's Voice Training Resource Compendium
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    As far as I know nowadays muscle training is recommended against due to it being dangerous and bad-habit forming.

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  • "Initials" by "Florian Körner", licensed under "CC0 1.0". / Remix of the original. - Created with dicebear.comInitialsFlorian Körnerhttps://github.com/dicebear/dicebearTR
    Trans Voice Help 0x2640 2 months ago 100%
    Lilith's Voice Training Resource Compendium

    Bunch of random resources people may find useful, will update this post as new resources come along. Mostly from Reddit, any posts have been uploaded as PDFs to read. [ A Mixture of Different Resources ] * https://transvoice.party/ - a website that links to some more resources and talks about other stuff * https://wiki.sumianvoice.com/wiki/pages/getting-started/ - Sumi's wiki. It's got a bunch of stuff with her own spin. Though you can see roots in other things too. You might find it useful. * https://selenearchive.github.io/ Selene's clips * https://0x2640.estrogen.productions/1cnqqttn.pdf Some advice on getting started * https://cramdvoicelessons.blog/ Scinguistics' blog. Their takes are a little bit divergent from the general consensus at times but there is value to be found! * https://0x2640.estrogen.productions/symceraa.pdf Mimicry advice from Jana * https://0x2640.estrogen.productions/kcemii5t.pdf Some advice on practicing from Kin Maynard * https://0x2640.estrogen.productions/5ksjvuak.pdf The Voice Book for Trans and Non-Binary People * https://0x2640.estrogen.productions/zraqbvzv.pdf Introductory Voice Training Resources Version 2.0 * https://www.undeadvoice.com/guide trans voice mega guide * https://buymeacoffee.com/alyssavt/no-explanations-instructions-feminizing [ Some useful Videos from Trans Voice Lessons ] https://www.youtube.com/@TransVoiceLessons/videos Channel link. https://youtu.be/oWmj73Ttp4E Learn to hear size/resonance better https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fylIX28mlyY Practice advice https://youtu.be/rvet1PwCoGY An ear training live stream https://youtu.be/imdM3Cea4NA Voice surgery live stream https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHyVNIcw_XI some common myths

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    trans_voice_help Trans Voice Help The Voice Book for Trans and Non-Binary People
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    obtain

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  • main Blahaj Lemmy Meta The fediverse canvas has started! Lets get Shonky out there!
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    finished

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  • "Initials" by "Florian Körner", licensed under "CC0 1.0". / Remix of the original. - Created with dicebear.comInitialsFlorian Körnerhttps://github.com/dicebear/dicebearTR
    Trans Voice Help 0x2640 2 months ago 100%
    The Voice Book for Trans and Non-Binary People https://0x2640.estrogen.productions/5ksjvuak.pdf

    A 261 page **book** going over voice training. May be helpful to some. [Link](https://0x2640.estrogen.productions/5ksjvuak.pdf) if you can't access it from the post.

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    Trans Memes 0x2640 2 months ago 100%
    yummy hrt
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    mtf Transfem Reaching Out For Help
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 2 months ago 100%

    I didn't mention DIY in the post because it can be a turn off for a lot people. HRT situation is complicated but it is something I want badly.

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  • mtf Transfem Reaching Out For Help
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 3 months ago 100%

    Yes.

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  • mtf Transfem Reaching Out For Help
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 3 months ago 100%

    Yup. I have a car but it's under my fathers name (for now). I would have it under my name but I don't have the money to pay for the insurance. (car is long paid off). I'll get it in my name eventually.

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    Transfem 0x2640 3 months ago 100%
    Reaching Out For Help

    After much consideration and fighting with my brain, I've decided that it's okay to ask for help in hard situations. So, I'm making this in hope that I receive at least a little bit of help. I'm asking for money, friends, and any advice you can give me. Everything counts and will help me during this rather terrible time. I'm Uni (name TBD) and I'm a 16 y/o transgirl unfortunately situated in the USA. You may know me as a regular on the Blahaj Matrix chats going by "Miss Universe". So a little bit (a lot?) of backstory to sort of explain my current situation. My egg cracked October last year and it was both the best and worst thing that has happened in my life so far. Being a minor means that I can't really do anything about the fact that my egg cracked, I'm fully relying on the people around me to help me (which has failed). Put simply, as a minor I have absolutely no control over my body or my life, I have no money, no experience, and nowhere to go. I came out to my mother and step-father (my parents are divorced) February this year, and while they seemed to be supportive at first they semi-recently turned on me and have been mostly unsupportive since then. As for my father and step-mother, they are both actively transphobic republicans. I have no plans on coming out to them until after I turn 18, and it would be unsafe to do so before then. Basically, as of now I have basically no support from anybody in my life and I'm completely trapped as my dysphoria gets worse with each passing day. With my situation sort of explained(?), why am I actually here? Pretty much I'm here because I need money. Money for clothes, makeup, just stuff that can hopefully help me alleviate some of my dysphoria until I'm able to afford to do so myself (which as a minor is difficult). And also I suppose gas, in case it comes to it and I need to run away, even for a short period. I'm also looking for advice, I don't really know what to do and it would be really nice to have at least some semblance of what I could be doing right now. I don't really know if any of that made sense, I'm bad at organizing my thoughts and even worse at asking for help. If you have any questions post them in the comments and I can probably answer them. You can support me [here](https://buymeacoffee.com/0x2640) on Buy Me a Coffee if you so wish, and/or with advice in the comments. Every donation counts.

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  • 0x2640 0x2640 3 months ago 100%

    Last night I dreamed I was a kid, and instead of hiding and building a masc, I was demanding to be myself. Little dream me was so sure of herself, so ready to fight everyone who would tell her she couldn’t be who she really was. I could use her energy right now, and her willingness to fight for herself.

    Speaking from experience, this isn't how being a trans kid works. I wish it was. The trans kid experience is more like this: you have absolutely no control over your body or your life, you have no money, no experience, and nowhere to go. All that energy gets sucked out of you as you realize there is absolutely nothing you can do as dysphoria eats you alive. If you don't have support from your family you are completely screwed until you become an adult. This isn't to say transitioning early in life isn't great, but to say that it's not all sunshine and rainbows. Becoming an adult morphs these things into problems you can actually control (at least somewhat).

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  • trans Trans How supportive is your family of your transition? (Rate 1-6)
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 3 months ago 100%

    Mother and Step-Father 2 leaning towards 1 upd: more like 3 leaning on 4 now :(

    Father and Step-Mother 6

    Aunt (fathers sister) 2

    Cousin (child of aunt and also trans) 1

    everyone else I don't know for sure, probably 3 or 2

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  • trans Trans How's your week been?
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  • 0x2640 0x2640 3 months ago 100%

    awwww amelia im so sorry to hear that :( thank you for not isolating yourself, i would miss you greatly

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  • 0x2640 0x2640 3 months ago 100%

    bleh

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